Friendly reminder : competition with myself and positive self talk

Just wanted to remind something to myself that

You are in competition with no one but yourself

After watching a motivational video, I realize this myself. I like to compare myself to other people. And as a result there is this feeling of self conscious, lack of self confidence and just sad.
If I were to make myself better, I should realize that I don’t need to compare to others but my own self in the past. I don’t need to compete with them. If I compete with someone smarter, then I might feel small because I don’t have that same gift that he has. If I compare myself to someone lazier or i don’t think have the ability like me, then I might feel better and become arrogant. I should have compare to the yesterday me. The yesterday me might do the wrong things, that is regretted by the today me. But its never too late to change to a better me, right?

Also, it’s important to have a positive talk to myself. A positive talk will build confidence, therefore a brand new person. This also needs a base of spiritualism. When I realize there is something bigger, the almighty, that have my back and always love me. I realize that every trouble is given to make me stronger. If life is just flat, then there might be nothing interesting to do. If life is with some challenges or even full of challenges, we have the ability to become stronger. We might come out with bruises , but definitely a strong one.


Piano Instrumental Wonders

Sometimes we just need to

listen to piano instrumental music

It’s relaxing

And peaceful

And makes you

Drowning in

the deep melancholy

Be it classical

Be it pop

Be it disney songs

Without any lyrics

And just listening

Doing something

Accompanied by

the beautiful melody

Or just sitting

closing our eyes

Guessing the name of the piece

and enjoy the tunes


Another Day Another Year

I’m back in the wordpress world! Long time no post… I just remembered my own promise to keep the blog updated every few days in a week. Annd I didn’t done it consistently yet..

Anywayy today is another day in another year, what I mean is that today is the day when I was born. I put a +1 to my age today. Not so many people congratulates me for that, but I don’t think it matters. Another year is another year. Another day is another day. It really is nothing super special , worth celebrating for. Celebration is to make you remember that you’ve gone through one year. And I know that it’s another year I’ve been through. I know I am still far from perfect or from where I want to be and who I want to be, but I am grateful for everything. Everything God has given to me and entrusted me with the life I have today.

I personally hope I will get better in decision making, think positive thoughts, and do the best for every steps that I take. And lastly, I hope and I can spread love in my surroundings.

I recently shop a lot, so I also hope that I can be better in managing money. That I will be in control of the money, and not the other way around.

In faith and beliefs, I hope I can put my faith more in God and his plan for me. I will be someone stronger with peace as I rely on the Creator and the one who gives Forgiveness and Salvation. Making time for praying and giving thanks. Be more active in service, any kind of it.

And also for studies, I have the ability to learn quicker and smarter. So I hope I will develop a way to learn with curiousity so that my grades are good and all of the things I learned be useful. I also want to allocate my free time not only to watch drama or only getting lazy, but also reading books. The books that interests me like self-improvement book, biographies, motivational and the book that will benefits me as well.

I know every hope will be useless if I only dream and put it in my head, while not giving each of them a try. So lastly I will quote Cinderella’s quote in the movie, ‘Have Courage and Be Kind’. I will have the courage to do those that I hope for and do it with kindness

*sooptimistic* *yayoptimisim*

A Trip to The Old Town

For quite a long time I’ve been planning to go around the city I lived in now. But planning alone doesn’t get things done. And I feel so relieved that I finish and crossed something off my bucket list. Guess what is it?

I finally went to the Old Town or Kota Tua in Jakarta. It’s a really a sudden and unexpected trip. So, I read my friend’s timeline and she said she’s bored and want to get out of her boarding house. There comes the person at the same wavelength as me! So all of a sudden, we agree to explore the Old Town.


One spot in the Old Town, outside the history museum

The next day it happened. I went there by train and arrive around 9 o’ clock. Initially my friend’s friend supposed to join us, but she can’t as she has to take care of her nephew. Finally its only two of us wandering around the Old Town. Since we both have class at 15.20, so we can’t go for long. Shortly, we went to 2 museums and eat lunch. We eat Soto Ayam in the middle of the blazing sun. Even though it is so hot, we enjoy it. Especially when we can cool down in the museums.


In the Train

People might wonder “What do we do in a museum?” Well, we enter 2 museums. The Wayang museum and The Jakata History museum. We mainly do 2 things. Taking pictures and pose. But we do appreciate the artwork and historical things. That’s what makes our photos awesome, really. Not only the historical things that makes it special, these museums also has a old but good architecture.


This hallway is superb

They still have this photogenic Deutsch influenced architecture. Indonesia used to get colonized by Netherlands. Colonization is terrible as I have read the history book and internet. In the history museum, for example, there’s the underground prison used to imprison people including those slaves that doesn’t accept orders from their master. And some of the prisoners are killed on the hallway right in front of the prison. But the remaining buildings used as museum is the good part of the past deeds. Many buildings and houses from years ago are still preserved until now.

My trip to the museums in Old Town is not that long as we have to go back at one in the afternoon. *actually extended it to half past one* We have such a great time there. Just taking a break from the routine. Goes back in time in history. Appreciating Wayang as the national artwork of Indonesia. Taking pictures and make goofy pose. I would like to go back again. Hopefully soon! 😉


Today is sunday
I wonder if Sunday
Is an abbreviation
Of ‘Sunny day’
Anyway Sunday is
a perfect day for travel
Or an escape
Just to eat ice cream in a beach
Would be nice
But this Sunday
I have to go
For an online competition
It’s okay though
The only problem is
I haven’t practice yet
I gotta go
See you next sunday

A New Habit

I would like to start a new habit.

The habit to be grateful.

As I am writing this, I am grateful that

Even though my eyes have myopia, they can still see, capturing every moments in my life

Even though I don’t have the best-looking body, I can still digest food and eat anything happily

Even though my legs are short, they can still stand and my feet can still press on the ground

Even though my hands are skinny-looking, they are supa’ strong and can do planks, supporting my body

Even though my hair is usually messy and untidy, It still part of me that I have and treasure

Even though I am not that smart, I am smart enough to be accepted in a university I am studying in

Even though I don’t have the right time-management, I still do my homeworks and try to be punctual

Even though I am full of doubt, I can make decision

Even though I am hungry at night, I choose not to eat midnight snacks.

Even though my desk is messy, I still have to clean and organize it once in a while

Even though I am not always confident, I can use affirmation to get my confidence back

Even though I waste so many time, I am glad I am not using it for drugs and other prohibited stuff

And even though I am not perfect, I am perfectly blessed


Do you know why I like this season of America’s Next Top Model? By this season I mean the new cycle 22. I like almost all of the cast, well except the bitsy (a nicer word than b****y) ones. Back to the question. I think I know why. Because it’s different. It’s different from the previous cycles. This is the bigger change than the cycle 20 which allows guys to participate as well. The change is : “There is no restriction in height”.

What I like aboutu this change is that :

  1. Being short doesn’t mean you can’t model
    In fact, by using tricks, you can actually looks slender and taller.
  2. The stereotypes about model being tall and skinny is ripped off
    The skinny stereotypes are not really relevant after plus models are coming out.
    And so thus the shorter ones.
  3. Allow the participants to show their looks, potential and dreams.
    I mean look at Nyle. He’s deaf, but he can pull it off like w.o.w.
    He has the looks, he may not be that tall, he may not be perfect.
    But look at what he can deliver to the judges and audiences! #teamNyle

It is a good change. And lots of opportunities for those who are rooting to be a participant. But height requirement blocks them from their dream. Anyway, in season 22, I really like the contestants. They come from different races, gender and height as well. I like their personalities too. I like the cheerful, crazy Devin, flower girl Ava, the bloody handsome Nyle, the always smooth, J smooth, the fierce Lacey, timid but strong Courtney, and the others. Although yes, there always be dramas in the model house. But I love them anyway. Can’t wait to see the winner. I really can’t choose one from those gorgeous models!

Finally to close this post. An anonymous quote : “Being different is one of the most beautiful things on earth”